I have finally witnessed the pain of falling out of love. It was brief. It was concise. It was... sad. I wasn't directly involved, but just sitting behind this relationship that was breaking even hurt my heart.
I thought I would share that.
Hej hej,
Any
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Bulletproof
It's been a tough month. Rowing season is finally over- which means that I can have a life between 6-10PM every night, if I choose so.
But, this also means a lot of other things.
I can spend more time on my homework.
I can spend more time to read things for leisure.
I can spend more time working to have mo' money.
I can spend more time writing. I can actually have time to write.
I can spend more time guest-starring on a radio show.
I can spend more time taking photo's.
I can spend more time finding new music.
Oh, those 4 precious hours available to me, now! I really never realized how much of a difference in my life that it'd make, until I got it back. It got old very quick when I had to constantly reiterate, "I can't- I have crew," numerous times, daily, whenever being invited to exciting adventures.
Though crew introduced me to many people, who have turned to be my closest friends here on campus, it also limited me so much on what I could have done this year. It also proved that I'm addicted to being an athlete. If I hadn't of done crew this year, I'd be 50 pounds heavier, grumpier, swimming in a sea of used CDs and gig-stubs. I'd may have gotten into drugs. Even more spoiled rotten with my drinks of choice. I may have hosted my own radio show. I may have volunteered a little more.
But, I can't really say what would have happened. Because, it did not. Crew happened. And it was the best damned choice I could have made for my freshman year. It's the cheesiest thing to think about- a high school jock, staying a jock in college...
But, I did start to think... I can't keep this schedule forever. It's inconvenient- it limits the things I can do. I can't be as committed as I would like to be (as much as it pains me), but there are going to be opportunities I am going to be facing, and there is no way that I can let them pass me by.
Good grief. I am beginning to sound like a broken record. Please, just allow me to end right here.
Hej hej,
Any
But, this also means a lot of other things.
I can spend more time on my homework.
I can spend more time to read things for leisure.
I can spend more time working to have mo' money.
I can spend more time guest-starring on a radio show.
I can spend more time taking photo's.
I can spend more time finding new music.
Oh, those 4 precious hours available to me, now! I really never realized how much of a difference in my life that it'd make, until I got it back. It got old very quick when I had to constantly reiterate, "I can't- I have crew," numerous times, daily, whenever being invited to exciting adventures.
Though crew introduced me to many people, who have turned to be my closest friends here on campus, it also limited me so much on what I could have done this year. It also proved that I'm addicted to being an athlete. If I hadn't of done crew this year, I'd be 50 pounds heavier, grumpier, swimming in a sea of used CDs and gig-stubs. I'd may have gotten into drugs. Even more spoiled rotten with my drinks of choice. I may have hosted my own radio show. I may have volunteered a little more.
But, I can't really say what would have happened. Because, it did not. Crew happened. And it was the best damned choice I could have made for my freshman year. It's the cheesiest thing to think about- a high school jock, staying a jock in college...
But, I did start to think... I can't keep this schedule forever. It's inconvenient- it limits the things I can do. I can't be as committed as I would like to be (as much as it pains me), but there are going to be opportunities I am going to be facing, and there is no way that I can let them pass me by.
Good grief. I am beginning to sound like a broken record. Please, just allow me to end right here.
Hej hej,
Any
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