Happy birthday.

To.



Me.


Good bye nine
teen


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I think I feel I see I know.

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Itchy legs

Sweat all over me
rolling down my cheek
neck
arms
back
breasts
legs
aching muscles
climbing up and down
pivoting stepping bending twisting
Take a breath--

You mean I'm not even close to being done?
I don't know if I like moving.

I wish I could settle down and be idle and comfortable
forever

because I am tired of itchy legs and arms.

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It's September.

I'm waiting...

taptaptap

... and you still haven't said a word.

I guess we aren't important.
That's fine.

At least

the Situation is
two-sided
now!

re-Joyce.


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Trot.

Please don't find this//
Please don't find this//
Please don't find this//
Please don't find this//
Please don't find this//
Please don't find this//


Friday.


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Follow lonely crowds, those clouds will come.

I am not listening
beyond the 8-bit
in my ears. I am busy
burping up
the milk in my belly and feeling
dreadfully lazy
about the idea of brushing my teeth.


The thought of tomorrow
sickens me

Come Saturday
quicker
so I don't have to ever
see you

again.

I know it's brash, I know it is impulsive, and it is all so very typical of me. It makes things a lot easier to deal with. Nobody knows what happened
but I have to turn from you
and silently say
Gute Nacht
in your ear one more time. I hope time can erase your face
and your words
your grin
your charm
your whispers in my ear
your hot breath and damp palms-
your significance
your drunken cigarettes
your laughter
your justice
your lively eyes
your embrace-
All of it

away.
I need to experience
better things.
Remove me from this hook--

You're just a hurdle, right now.

Come Saturday
I won't be over you.

Damn it.


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Any

I wanted--

I wanted to post a poem I wrote for a course I had taken.

Then I realized that was not such a good idea.

You can wait to read it in the New Yorker, though.


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